Ok. I guess this is the perfect opportunity to revisit the yoga studio I used to go to, since clearly I won't be walking or jogging this morning.
I was up at 7:45 but by habit, I didn't get out of bed until an hour later. I grabbed a quick bite to eat, knowing that I didn't need to leave until 9:45 to make the 10am class.
But something had been telling me all morning to check the website. So at 9:40 I looked up the schedule. Damn. The 10am class had moved to 9am. No yoga for me today...at least not the kind led by someone who actually knows what he or she is doing. Habits-1, Leslie-0.
I decided to get down on the living room floor and stretch. I figured this should be a slow, gentle stretch given that I am not moving so well. I settled into my first pose, a seated position reaching for my left foot. If I'm going to be here a minute & have one free hand, I might as well get my phone (vicious multi-tasking habit). As I reached toward the coffee table to grab it, a sharp pain hit my back. Holy OUCH! Alrighty, then. Habits-2, Leslie-0.
After the seated stretches (while using my phone to play "Unblock Me"...I may have lost the first battle regarding that habit, but I refuse to lose the war. My stubbornness is doing me no favors today.), I rolled over to do a torturous yoga pose known as the "frog stretch." It's a tough one & I can't get very low these days...but I thought it would really help my poor back!
As I heard my joints creaking & felt my tight muscles resisting, I thought, "What happened? I used to be so flexible." But guess what...flexibility is a habit. One I have not been practicing nearly enough of lately. Habits-3, Leslie-0.
This got me thinking. What IS a habit? I like equations, formulas, & news ways of looking at things, so I came up with this:
Said another way...
Our THOUGHTS + What We DO = Who We BE
Hello, stiff, bumpy road. I think perhaps I'll take a detour back to flexibility & openness now that I know what may lay ahead.
And so I started thinking about all the ways of being I want to embody, but may not be in the habit of. I can't BE excellent, if I don't think & act excellent in at least one small way today. And every day. Likewise with being healthy, happy, successful, & so on.
So I have a little work to do. Certainly on my flexibility...but in a few other areas too. And just in case you were feeling alone in the gap between where you are now & where you actually WANT to be, I thought I'd let you know...you're not. I'm right there with you. Looking for that one thought. That will help me take that one action. That will move me one step closer to who I know I really am.
EVERYTHING IS A HABIT
Flexibility is a habit.
Health is a habit.
Excellence is a habit.
Success is a habit.
Kindness is a habit.
Happiness is a habit.
Love is a habit.
Being loved...is a habit.
Hate, anger, & indifference...
Those are habits too.
Believe they are the only way,
And they will be the only way.
But you can choose to stretch into to a new belief.
It doesn't have to be a whole belief to start.
Just find one small corner of one belief you wish was yours,
And hang on tight to that little part.
The part you can grasp without resisting it as impossible.
Take one step forward from that corner.
And then another.
And then another.
Soon you will be centered in that belief.
Acting from fertile new ground.
Being the person you always wanted to be,
But never knew how.
Everything is a habit.
Special thanks to Stacie Frazier of Haute Shots Beauty & Boudoir Photography and Shana Dahan of Colorblind for the private yoga class and amazing pictures!!