I wish I could get back all the energy I have spent over the years wishing I was someone else. Wishing I was enough. Wishing I could “get it right.” Wanting to be prettier. Thinner. Better at my job. More regal, less goofy. Wishing people would take me SERIOUSLY.
These thoughts about myself created a slow (and sometimes not-so-slow) energy leak. Until one day, when a dear friend asked, “Why do you want to be taken SERIOUSLY? That’s just not you. Wouldn’t you rather be taken AUTHENTICALLY?”
I paused. It was a loooooong pause. Could that simple adjustment to my thinking make a difference? What if I stopped wishing I was MORE of what I saw in other people and LESS of what I see in myself. What if I nurtured the fact I am NOT regal…but I am TOTALLY goofy (and damn good at it!!)? What could I do with all the energy I was wasting, wishing to be something I am not?
I think it’s time to acknowledge my assets…even if they’re not the ones I would order off the menu of life. They ARE the ones I came pre-programmed with & I just might be able to do something brilliant with them if I stop all the damn resistance!
It’s time I make a home & lay down roots. To nurture my inner goofball & see what fruit she bears. To grow where I am planted (smack dab in the center of Goofy-ville) and stop wishing my goofy seeds would sprout regal trees. Maybe the world has enough regal trees. Maybe it’s waiting for a big old GOOFY TREE!
What seeds within YOU are waiting for a little love so they can GROW?!
PS--The irony of embracing my inner goofball was that I am finding a regal piece of myself I never knew existed. Turns out I can be goofy one day & regal the next. And somewhere in between lays a new way of being I never knew existed...a regal goof! Huh. Who knew?!